I had six deaths in 20 months my father being the first he passed away on their 54th wedding day the doctor said he had been hanging on . I just wanted to be alone so took my dog to the beach every bit of spare time I had lost my dad yet never shed a tear . Had to prop my mother brought up with the stiff upper lip not allowed to cry on the same day 15mins later his sister in law died both in the undertakers window next to my place everyone pointing at me saying I had lost both my parents on the same day , till the undertaker sorted it out . My cousin a year older than me had her life support machine switched off followed by her father who give up the will to live . My other uncle went to Spain with his wife ( no family ) and died 29th Dec 1999 I had to sort it all out hand in his car ( mobility ) get the body returned it took a month and they do not use anything to preserve the body . Not a pretty sight when you have to help the undertaker lift it to find the death cert in Spanish under the body in a plastic coffin . Dark grey body bloated covered in a months facial hair . I held my aunt up in church and told her not to see his body and at the same time my dads sister in law died in Newcastle-upon-tyne I could only go to one . I had become hard inside . Yet in 2010 my mate died of a massive heart attack the m/ing after we had been out that was the straw and the tears just flowed , I could not get on with his wifes family Northern Ireland Catholics but nor could Peter he hated them and they said a man crying was an insult as death is a happy time not to me it was'nt .
You must be a very lucky person to live to a right old age and die in your bed of natural causes . My parents lost their first child a daughter in 1947 I came along later never understood them till my daughter was born then it clicked . I have hit the age where a lot of friends are popping off over the last few year . Death does not frighten me its just leaving my daughter alone that makes me think I hope she is secure before its my time.
My family has lost a fare few to cancer my mother 2 sisters and my fathers brothers and sisters , but some drank and smoked as did both of my grandfathers who died of it also a horrid diet . Today people live with it and get better my mate the other month its not the beast it was .
Sorry Boshers you are to stubborn and awkward to give in so you will be OK . You can come to mine I will be shot in the back while in bed with a young blonde by her jelouse husband with a 12 bore the keys to his 250 GTO in one hand and a crystal class of champagne in the other go out in style.
