The insight to want to stop is coming and going. I have (unfortunately) not (yet) internalized such a lasting urgency. I had only smoked one cigarette for three days, and then it crept back up again. But not as many as before. I am not a brave hero. On the other hand, my basic attitude towards smoking is changing. I see it less as a positive pleasure. This develops slowly but irresistibly, which is good.
Hannes, you're right, it's always the next cigarette I shouldn't smoke.
Your story about your good friend is shocking. I believe only on basis of this reality I really stop. It's very tragic that this has to happen before anyone changes their own behavior. In this sense your sad story will help. Thank you for thinking of my plan.
